Dinner at Johnny's

Mana ler makanan ni

Dia Sempat make up dulu sebelum makan

We went to Johnny's for dinner last Thursday before nenek go to kerteh. No picture on the food but Alya only. Alya makan sendiri and the floor we all covered with the rice and all the foods....

I really ,really miss my twin today.........

Short trip to Seremban

We went to Seremban for wedding last weekend. Very bad jammed. It took 3 hours to reach seremban . Alya pun dah naik boring dah...

Shopping Again - Sogo

Ha ha ha kitorang 3 beranak ni mmg suka gi sopping. So last weekend sopping lagi. Lagi sekali org yg paling byk beli baju ialah Alya! Byk sungguh baju dia. Walaupun macam mana pun dia tetap tak heran ngan baju yg bertimbun tu. Yg dia kisah yerlah piano baru dia. Lagipun baju baru ke tak dia tetap pakai baju (agaknya dia pikir camtu kot hahahahha) Ish ish ish biasa dia ni. Beli botol barulah , cawan barulah, jeans barulah . Sebab semuanya murah dan lawa lawa. Daddy cume beli baju kerja, mummy track suit and baby-t and comforter set yg lawa dan sangatlah murah. Yg lain semua alya punya. Sibuk jerrrr dia tu...
Apapun mummy tetap sayang dia........

Friday, 22nd May

Today i don't know to say what day. First thing in the morning Amir and I pegi ke kubur. Pakcik Amir that we called Wah meninggal. Actually dia meninggal semalam after 3 months fighting with cancer. So today we went to the grave and the moments jenazah di masukkan ke dalam liang lahad suddenly my tears were falling down. Because i've experienced of losing someone we love. This is what i said to my husband " Daddy, kalau masa baby twin diorang masukkan dalam liang lahad mesti mummy dah meraung kat situ" and daddy said " sebab tulah saya tak bagi awak datang" :(

Before that kitorang sempat jugak melawat kubur Wan kat tempat yg sama gak. First time after i married amir. So rindu pulak rasa nak visit kubur baby twin but daddy tak nak dia kata jalan dah lain. Lagipun i have to go back to the office. Takperlah mummy will visit you later my dear angels.

So today adalah hari yg penuh keinsafan. Setiap manusia akan tiba masanya. Hanya amalan kita yg menentukan. Semoga roh mereka ditempatkan dikalangan orang orang yg beriman. Amin...........

What happen if you have lots of work and the time is too short for you to finish it? How you feel if people said you are not doing your work when we''re talking about having to work alone in one division and supporting about 800 staff? Not mentioning the assignments? Make it worst the exam just around the corner! The fact is i know what i'm doing and how hard i worked and put aside all the important things in my life. Procrastination does not exist in my diary. I need more strength please......

Alya is back to her active mode again. Two days in the row mandi pool. Alhamdulillah she's fine. I think dia takut tu sbb dengar doc tu kata lagi 2 hari kalau tak turun temp. kena refer ke specialist. The next day tu dia dah ok skit. Tau takut.... heheheheheh
Anyway i'm happy as she's now playing and mumbling all around. Yehaaaaaa............

Fever

Alya got Fever! since Sunday night. So on Monday daddy brought her the clinic and the temp. is 40 . It keeps on and off. Yesterday morning it seems to be better but last night her body feels like iron again. So pity of her. She's not eaten anything for the past 3 days. Huwaaaa mummy are so susah hati. Last night she keeps crying all night and berguling guling atas katil. I feel like crying. We will bring her to the clinic again today.

Shopping at One Utama -

Fuhh semalam we went to One Utama to jalan jalan actually. Since dah lama tak bawak alya to shopping complex. Taulah one utama ni kan besar so kitorang jarang pegi and once pegi mesti sesat nak balik cari parking. Tetiba kitorang teringat nak carikan sandal for Alya . So cari cari cari masuklah baby gap, osh kosh ntah apa apa lagila kedai sbb floor tu semuanya utk baby and kids. Mula Mula masuk kedai Baby Gap and berkenan satu sandal but we all keluar balik nak tgk kedai lain pulak. Masuk Osh Kosh mmg lawa la sandal tu ingat nak beli tak jadi. Suddenly je tgh jalan jalan lalu satu kedai ni Gaagoo Kids nampak baju gown lawa sangat colourful. Tapi bila tgk harga wow satu 89.90 satu lagi 109.00 . Kitorang keluar tak jauh dari kedai tu " Mummy baju tu lawa lah boleh beli tak jumpa tempat lain. Mummy pun kata " ha ah la kita pusing balik la". Bila dah try baju tu tgk tgk satu je yg muat. Harga dia mak oiii RM109 huwaaaa mummy pun dah lama tak beli baju mahal camtu. Huhuhu....... . Grab jugak satu legging utk dia for 20 ringgit after 50% discount.

Then we all keluar dari kedai tu terus pegi baby gap. Cari cari sandal berkenan satu sandal yg colourful ni. Harga dia you menangis jugak ni RM129 huwaaaaaaaa. Harga ni dapat satu baju Zara ni wei. Belilah jugak . Terus pakaikan dia sandal tu . Bila jalan 3 langkah je sandal tu tercabut terus kedepan. Kelakar pun ada. So kitorang pun pegilah tukar. Cari punya cari sampai semua kasut ngan sandal dah kitorang try takde satu pun design yg betul betul grip kat kaki dia. Dahla bila nak try jer dia meronta ronta siap lari lari lagi macam nak kena makan ubat. Penat mummy and daddy. Lastly tak dapatlah sandal colourful , amik sandal warnah silver and because the price is 119 so amik la satu stocking harga 15. Disebabkan dah penat sangat asyik melayan kerenah dia and dia pulak tak nak duduk kat stroller kitorang terpaksalah balik. Tak taulah kenapa alya tak nak duduk diam every time keluar. Itu yg membuatkan tambah penat kot. Mugkin jugak disebabkan masa alya dalam perut mummy dia tak henti henti jalan. Every time pegi makan pun dia tak nak duduk kat chair berbeza dgn budak lain yg sebaya dengan dia mesti duduk diam and makan.

on the way balik rumah we all singgah kat Ani Sup Utara utk makan. Again alya tak nak duduk jugak. So makan cepat cepat and balik. Malam tu alya tido asyik nangis jer sbb penat and pagi ni on the way pegi umah wan pun dia still tido lagi. Sampai umah wan baru dia bangun. Penat sangat la tu....

Lunch at TGIF

The members

Three For All

My Lunch for the Day- Shanghai chic. salad. Very nice..

I received this invitation from Alia yesterday. Sungguh terperanjat at last my friend ni nak kahwin dah. She must be very happy. It is a long way before she met her true love. But anyway hope that they will be a vey happy and loving couple. With many , many kids tooo!!!!

Congatulations Alia.

We went to the grave last Saturday. It has been about 1 month since the last time we visited the twins grave. It is a hot and sunny day and three of us did some cleaning especially cabut rumput. Alya is so good as she knows we were at her brother's grave so she just keep quiet and looking at us baca doa and cabut the rumput as well as jirus air. Ah even though i could not take care of them but i still miss them every now and then. So every time after we visited the grave i always tell Alya how lucky she is got to live with mummy and daddy. Her brother's not even have time to look at mummy and daddy not to say our love. And she just kept smiling and listening . I wonder whether she's understand or not.
Alya also having diarrhea from last Friday until today. So after work today we will bring her to the clinic.

Monday Blues today. Since Jumaat i was on leave so rasa macam takde mood nak start keja. Well i was busy last week since my mum, brother and sister came to my house. So now nenek dah balik last saturday and Alya back to rumah Wan to take care of her. Poor Alya as she is so manja with nenek but what to do nenek have to go back. Dah sebulan dah nenek kat rumah alya and rumah mak ngah dia. Yesterday i went to Darby Park as usual lah menyibuk and for the first time i went to Sauna room at Darby Park. It was nice and so refreshing. Alya with the daddy at swimming time and mummy alone pampering myself at the Sauna. Then we went back at 5 pm and alya sleep at 7.30 pm . Rasanya dia penat kot mandi pool and palying around with her cousins.

2nd Wedding Anniversary

We celebrated our 2nd anniversary on 31 March. Attendees were Nenek and Alya hehhehehe. Atuk as usual la tak larat . So we had salmon, spare ribs, seafood and alya has bread with carrot soup. Actually quite several time dah we all visit this place and we still prefer it even though it a bit expensive than Victoria Station , but the portion is big especially the spare ribs. At first we all dah pergi Victoria but tak taulah why soo many people on that night so we decided to go to Roadhouse Grill and we are again satisfied with the food.

Picture during our trip to Genting on Dec. Alya was so happy as well as her cousin.

When i passed a road this morning which is still in ampang area, i saw one lady holding her daughter under a tree waiting for a bus and the girl is sleeping on her mother's shoulder. The mother must be tired holding the girl. Today's weather is so hot even in early morning its like 10 o'clock. I look back again and i feel oh kesiannya that lady and the girl. For me I never have difficulties in bringing Alya to anywhere, i dont have to wait for a bus or taxi, standing for so long under the tree. So i looked back at myself and i feel so bersyukur that we still have a car for my husband to drive me anywhere, Alya will go to any place in air conditioning car and comfortable. I could not imagine if i have to bring Alya out by bus, walking under the sun which is so hot. Even though we're not rich but we have all the basic things such as car, house, beautiful clothes and enough money to eat everything we want. Sometimes i think i got to bersyukur of what i have right now as long as we are healthy, happy and enough money to buy our necessities. For Alya i tried to do the best for her and mummy loves you.

* Picture when Alya was 2 weeks old

Terengganu Trip

We went to Terengganu trip last weekend. So tired but we had lots of fun.

Picture of Twin

I've the picture of my twin from Abg Hadi. Thanks to him at least i can see my angels. It was very touching and now i felt a bit regret for not looking at them when they were born. At that time i dont have the strength to look at them both physically and mentally. It's true like they said both are with long legs (of course macam daddy), both hidung mancung (like daddy too), one is hitam manis ( daddy too!), and one is putih (Like mummy!) . I really miss them and if they are here i think my life is complete in this world, nothing more i can ask from Allah.

A Tragic Moments - Lost of Two Boys

Just started work after almost a month after being hospitalized and resting at home. For those who knows that i'm pregnant before, but now the cute lil boys were no longer in my tummy. They have returned to the creator and whether his mommy redha or not it is Allah's will. For me it is too fast as if i just got to know i pregnant yesterday and they are gone today! Mummy and Daddy tak sempat nak buat apa apa for the boys and even the baju mummy bought specially to wear to function because i cannot wear baju kurung anymore tak sempat dipakai. And today i'm wearing the dress. I thought that the boys would be fine after a week resting at the hospital but Allah cuma pinjamkan the boys to us for 4 months plus only. To my little angels up there mummy, daddy and your sister Alya will always remember you until our last breath and shall we meet in heaven. Having you is such a precious moments for mummy and daddy and you still have a place forever and ever deep in our hearts. Al-Fatihah.
I will post the moments how i lost my twin when i have the strength to do so.